.Sunday, February 28, 2010.
i used to be love drunk,
now im hungover.
i love you forever,
forever is over.
if you're thinking about it that much, doesn it mean that you want it?
im sorry if im wrong, but it really seem that way.
if the one of us want a break, there's no point in giving a choice to the other one.
why can't you get it?
i just want you to be happy.
cause i know i will make myself numb and eventually forget you.
you were so nice to me when we first started.
everyday we would text sweet nothings to each others.
this year we didn't spend our valentine's day.
and we won't have a chance to do it anymore.
i know we won't.
you started becoming clingy and emo-ish.
everyday doing things that i detest.
our conversations are going nowhere too.
there's no point anymore.
i've changed.
you too.
we've changed to repel each other.
im sick and tired already. just let me go.
.Monday, January 25, 2010.
i read your blog.
for a moment i really liked you.
the two day 1 night camp was absolutely fun with you.
even though till the end, i chose to stay with him,
i hope you understand that you are one of the best guys i've seen.
hope you'll find the one for you. stay happy too (:
and i won't be the correct piece for your life concert.
one day you'll figure that out.
but i will always be in the first row audience and support you throughout.
.Thursday, December 17, 2009.
i know what's 妄想 afterall.
and i do know im possessive.
but i just can't help being angry over you not caring about anything.
maybe one day, i'll just run away from you.
if i even bring up the courage of telling you he like me.
that means i want you, to be jealous. even for a bit.
and not telling me you didn't feel anything after receiving those forward-ed messages.
maybe you're just too good for me...
.Sunday, December 13, 2009.
the day when i break up with you, i will not cry.
because i will remember those days we spent together.
making stupid jokes...
hugging and kissing...
i know you are not one that laugh or talk much.
but its all okay, cause i will make you.
i appreciate the silence you give me, because sometimes, thats all i need.
when i always say, i don like you,
none of it is true at all.
it just meant that, "stop being mean, i love you."
.Monday, December 7, 2009.
第一次牵你的手
我紧张的不行
all my first times with you.
and im glad that its you.
i remember the first time we held hands.
i remember the first time you hugged me.
i remember the first time you kissed me.
i remember the first time we quarreled [or maybe just myself being unreasonable]
i remember the first time you held my hands in class, in front of the class.
i remember the first night i missed you so much that i cried.
i remember the first time i waited for your sms until i got angry.
i remember the first time i yearn so so much for your kiss.
i remember the first time i tried so hard to imagine my blanket was you,
so that i can finally sleep.
and i'll forever remember this time, where i can't decide if i will break up with you.
even i felt unbelievable that i managed to remember all these.
but i guess im just gonna type all these down,
and persuade myself to read through just before i make up my mind...
to break up with you.
.Sunday, November 22, 2009.
那些爱过的感觉都太深；
我都还记得。
原来我那么的爱他，爱到那么深。
连我自己都不敢相信。
毕竟这也是我第一段恋爱…
我不能期待太过分。
反正我终于清楚我这一段恋情相似绿茶般。
不能期待它的甜味，只要自己放下心里对它的期待，
一定能常出它独特的甜味。
而我自己也相信-只要我不再对他有所期待，我一定能感受到恋爱中的甜味。
虽然哭了那么多夜晚才领悟到这如此渺小的道理，我还是觉得十分值得。
因为至少还是被我发现了。
所以，陈鼎翰，让我继续爱上你吧 (:
因为…因为我是真的真的很爱你。
你也会为你所答应的事实现，对吧?
我知道你永远也不可能读到这一篇…
但至少我可以真的肯定我爱上你了。
而且我还是更更更爱你了，越来越爱<3
.Friday, May 1, 2009.
我喜欢一醒来有你在身旁；
我喜欢 就这样靠在你胸膛；
我喜欢 你的手放在我肩膀；
可能爱就是那么的简单，只是被我们人类改划成这样复杂。
不是吗？
因为我们都认为爱牵涉着太多的事情。
其实，它只需要两个人来写。
所以，你愿意和我一起改造这个人类所谓的“爱” 吗？
让我们把这件事宣传给全世界，告诉他们人类冲很久以前的错误……
我多希望有个男生这么的酷的跟我所这件事。
但这只是我凭空捏造的，每半句是事实。 多希望爱的确这样的简单。
几句话就可以解释“爱” 这既简单又复杂的字。